i figured out there is not much ppl reading my blog, and so, im doing this rite here.
despite frens are accompanying me, caring me all the while after that, i didnt tell em much about it.
there's ppl's nama baik tat i need to jaga, i need to swallow it without ruin ppl's image, so until now others might know tat the status has changed, w/o knowing the reason behind, oh, except my family and bff, i literally "break down" in front of em *blushed*


i know i owed a big thank you to mum and lf, i actually made em worry bout me tis few weeks..
sorry mum, i know u called lf asking wats going on, and u told her u really worried cuz its the 1st time i cried in front of u, padahal im the toughest child u have cuz i din even drop a tears when we lost our beloved father ( i know i gotta be strong and tc of u guys).
im trying my best to keep myself occupied so that i wont have time to think much, maybe i'll seems happier tis way.


please dont ask me when will i "recover", i really do not know. yea, things happened cannot be undone, like Lookout Point, i actually drove there at tat very nite, idk why i did this, but i just wanted go back to the place where everything started. despite knowing tat place has changed, it still like so hard to bliv tat sweet place has changed tat much, irrecognisable!! its the 1st slap for me telling me i should wake up.... after trying days to days, i realize i cant really let go so easily, there is still lil hope deep down inside, wishing there will be a turning back point in the future, despite how hectic ma life is, when everything settles down at nite, i'll still missing him and his lovely family...


anyway, if he wished us to remain as fren, i shall respect and accept that. i'll be glad if he can find his happiness with his decision. i'll be alright and able to take all this, all i need is time, lotsa lotsa time ;)

The Grand Organ of St Paul's Cathedral

Miss the old U

I'm not tat tough all the time, sometimes I need a shoulder too ;(
Jus tat u din notice oni, not anymore…

Destiny's Child - "Nasty Girl"

Struggling.....

there is an instructor/dancer i respect or admire the most,
she is the 1st person introduced me to the world i totally into now,
she guided me from nothing to something, to whom i am now;
she is the one encourage me to pursue next level, try out something harder,
even once chose me to join and be part of her gang,
well for some reason, unfortunately im not learning from her anymore,
but i always feel the urge to go bac to her,
if wanna rate, i supposed i'd learn from 0 to 6 from her,
but now joining the new class makes me feels like going bac to 4 or 5 sometimes,
im craving for more~
how how?
im always not good in doing decision and judging things,
should i go bac? is it really i cant go further by sticking to current situation?
here's something to share, im being really nostalgia ere =(

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=631376352#!/photo.php?v=129971780387497&set=t.100000072711285&type=2&theater

Avril Lavigne - Nobody's Home

a song tat once i loved the most ;)

im loving it

im soooooo in luv with tis song~~~