was quite sensitive recently,
still feels like so-close-yet- so-far,
things are just like unreachable,
feels like wanna talk bout it but cant get the right timing and appropriate channel ,
it is reli not nice to let someone affect ma emotion,
tried to ignore all of it, but sometime the ignorant wont work so efficiently,
starts to think tat maybe im the "culprit",
maybe me myself is the one who cause the problem,
maybe i've crave for too much which makes me become unreasonable,
ok, maybe i do not deserve any good thing until i become a better 1
guess i'll just arrange as much activities as i can so tat i wont have spare time to think,
guess its better to be neutral, not giving nor taking
i'll stop demanding, and just be independent