Nearmiss

sweat~~~~
was ready to give up dy,
was really considered all the consequences,
was ready to let it go and set free,
was trying to stop approaching, end the tiring initiation,
was giving away to ppl who think tat they owned it......
still, i couldn't,
i couldn't bear loosing it,
i cant bear giving it away,
tho i do envy and wonder y it works so well on others.....
phew~~ thank god for the emergency brake,
to prevent me from doing the silly thing..